I’m tired of being surrounded by cowards. Men and women that are too scared to speak up and let their voices be heard. They cower in fear, always doing what is “right”, never stopping to think their own thoughts. Some even too scared to think what they want to think. They just feed on what is fed to them. Never thinking if they like it or not, just accepting it. Not realizing that what is being fed to them is shit. It’s all shit. Shit covered lies. None of them panic that our freedom of speech is being taken away. Not daring to shout about it. They just accept the chemicals and shit that they are being fed, never giving a second thought. Too terrified to stand up to the money eating, freedom destroying, lying hypocrites that dare call themselves our “leaders”. They are scared to stop accepting and start creating. Build from your own thoughts, your own desires… from love. What an abstract idea… to build from what is within rather than destroying all that surrounds.

My job is killing my social life. I never go out anymore. I feel like an old woman. I wake up at 4 or 5, go to work, come home, shower, and watch tv til I go to bed at 7:30 or 8. I’ve lost the taste for alcohol. I’ve been finding any excuse not to go out. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’m ready for my river adventure next month, but we’ll see how that goes.